Christmas is over and although I said we wouldn’t go overboard this year, we did. Now the clean up begins.
Before I start purging, de-cluttering and re-organizing I need to clean. Because if I don’t start with a clean slate I will lose my mind. My goal is to pick up and clean every room and get caught up on the laundry. You know, that lovely mountain that has been collecting and overflowing out of the hamper. I know that if I don’t take the first step and get everything tidy I will become too overwhelmed.
I want to share my journey honestly. Which is going to be really difficult at times. It’s not easy to let people see the things you work hard to hide. I’m ashamed of the state of some of the things around here.
When people share things, they tend to only share the good parts. I’m guilty of this myself. If I take a photo of my children and there is a mess in the corner, I will either push the mess out of the frame, or choose a new place to take the photo. I’m sure there are others out there who can relate. We have a certain reputation to maintain, and who wants to tarnish that by showing how things really are and not how we want them to appear to be.
My husband works from home and we homeschool our children, so we spend a lot of time at home “living” in it. But this year I took a job and I am gone for a good part of the day. When I get home we are running around to different sports and activities. Then it’s dinner time and after dinner we do our school work. I have not yet found a routine that allows me to keep up with the house. And honestly, I am so tired at the end of the day that I don’t feel like giving it any thought. I really feel that by downsizing our things there will be less of a mess to clean. The house will appear cleaner just by the lack of clutter! My children are getting old enough to start helping and having more responsibilities too. And again, with streamlining our possessions, I really feel like that will help out enormously.
Do we really need as many clothes as we have? Shoes? Dishes? Blankets and sheets? Soaps and lotions? Art supplies? We have so many puzzles and games that we don’t even play them. Why not just have a few that we actually play with? Don’t even get me started on my yarn and fabric collection…
I know in the beginning I will have a hard time letting things go. Maybe, eventually one day ,we’d like to play that one game that we used to have. That pair of shoes that we never wore would have looked cute with this ONE outfit, or that small piece of fabric remnant that had been sitting in my closet for years would have been perfect for this ONE project…
I can’t hold on to it all. My happiness in the present is more important to me than the tiny bit of hope of happiness these objects MIGHT bring me in the future.